How has it been almost 2 years already?
Seems like 6 months ago.
Leelz & I got off tomorrow.
Lunch and flower visit time with Kell.

I'm in such an awful mood today.

History is being made. Right this moment.
And it is a wonderfullll feeling!
Congratulations to President Barack Obama!

Yes, we can.
and Yes, we did.

You were doing so good. SO good.
What's Susie going to do without you?
I can't believe this has seriously happened.
Not to you.



RIP Garret.
I love you, I'll miss you.






I need to get to Wisconsin.
I don't want to miss my chance to see you one last time.

Disregard all of that.
I really should talk to people before getting bothered by silly things like this.

I worry about too many people.
I have a best friend that had to move half across the country to get sober and STILL no one gets why I don't enjoy drugs. Maybe its because I see what it does to everyone? Just maybe.

Leeanne, Ryan and Matt are the only people I'm extremely close with anymore. I tell a few others a lot still, but they aren't my best.
I'm happy to know I've weeded out the shitty people and still have the ones that matter.

I really think Life is all about learning. We're meant to be taught on our own grounds about whats right and wrong. And I think eventually everyone will figure it out, but until then everyine should stop lying to themselves and excemt them for who they are.

You know, In the last year I've learned more than I ever thought I would. I learned that grudges lead to guilt. I've learned that hate gets you no were more than negative feelings. I've learned that no matter how mad you are at someone you'll realize eventually that at one point you were friends and the arguing wasn't worth it.

I guess its all part of growing up but who knows. I guess some people don't learn how to grow up until it's too late and they've already burned the bridges that once gave so much support. I think that last part was to one specific person and she'll know. I had one grudge against one girl, and we held the same grudge. But we're moving on and accepting that it was never worth it and Amanda C. and I are now on good terms and its nice to not hate anyone. I mean theres seriously nothing better than having only happy feelings towards everyone I know. But.. everyone will learn. You'll see. When you finally stop doing the dumb shit you do, you'll understand. I look forward to the day you know I was right all along. You may have deleted me off myspace but what the fuck ever. You're still my friend on livejournal and real life whether you want to hold some dumb grudge or not. You don't talk to me enough anymore to make the assumptions you did. I know you will know this is for you. You've been a friend to me for too long for me to give up. We'll be good again one day.

wow this entry went a little astray. haha, but this was everything Iwanted to tell you and now you know. don't have too much pride to realize this is for you.
SO GUESS WHAT EVERYONE!! I'M GOING BACK TO SCHOOL! YESSSSSSS!